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No, I haven't been lying to myself. I've just been trying to survive. That's all. And right now I guess there's no point in even doing that anymore. If anyone bothers to read this, I'd like to thank everyone who's been helping me, in no matter how small a way, to make me feel sane all these while. And if I've hurt anyone in any way, I'm sorry.

If the one thing that I've been living for all this time is now gone, then I honestly don't think I can live any longer. This blog is just a channel for me to spend time on, just something for me to do when I'm all alone & trying to forget what's bothering me most.

But, sad to say, I don't even feel like trying to survive anymore.

What is that one thing that I've been living for?
It's not a someone - nobody belongs to me.
It's not love - I've lost it a long time ago.

It's just hope. Simply that tiny shred of hope.

Now gone.

Life has been good & cruel to me at the same time.
But too bad. It's still cruel.

I'm sorry, life.