since you've been gone
Actually, that title ^ doesn't really mean anything. It's just the title of the song that I keep listening to, Since You've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson. It's just too catchy(argh!). *talks to my brain* I need some Metallica, baby.
I'm in this indescribable mood. I honestly don't know whether I'm feeling better or worse because all I know is, I wake up, survive a day, go to sleep, wake up, survive another day, go to sleep, wake up......It fees like I'm running away from the shadows of my fears, the actual fears themselves being right beside me but I try not to look at them, and the consequences awaiting for me somewhere out there. I don't even know if that makes any sense.
On a lighter note(yup)...I had a bad case of influenza on Monday & now I'm still coughing my lungs out. Trying to get all that unhealthy phlegm out but I can't(yes I can't) actually spit anything out. When I try to spit, I just...drool. Eww.
On an even lighter note, I'm off from work for 2 days straight, today & tomorrow. Even though it's almost the end of the day, I'm still pretty happy with it.
I have to try to make myself 'happy' with the littlest, even stupidest things. Sometimes I find it pathetic. At times, I think that's how many of us survive in this world. Yes, I'm trying to be in a positive thinking mood. I'm telling myself that all this positive thinking crap is actually good for me. Yup.
I'm in this indescribable mood. I honestly don't know whether I'm feeling better or worse because all I know is, I wake up, survive a day, go to sleep, wake up, survive another day, go to sleep, wake up......It fees like I'm running away from the shadows of my fears, the actual fears themselves being right beside me but I try not to look at them, and the consequences awaiting for me somewhere out there. I don't even know if that makes any sense.
On a lighter note(yup)...I had a bad case of influenza on Monday & now I'm still coughing my lungs out. Trying to get all that unhealthy phlegm out but I can't(yes I can't) actually spit anything out. When I try to spit, I just...drool. Eww.
On an even lighter note, I'm off from work for 2 days straight, today & tomorrow. Even though it's almost the end of the day, I'm still pretty happy with it.
I have to try to make myself 'happy' with the littlest, even stupidest things. Sometimes I find it pathetic. At times, I think that's how many of us survive in this world. Yes, I'm trying to be in a positive thinking mood. I'm telling myself that all this positive thinking crap is actually good for me. Yup.
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